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Where is my quiet depression when I need it
I had an outburst Like I’ve never had before I scared myself I yelled; I was aggressive I felt possessed by anger Overwhelmed by fear Who...
pamz27
Jan 25, 20211 min read
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Saying goodbye
In the midst of deep depression - I was a bad patient for a therapist who tried for so many years to help me heal. When I gave up - she...
pamz27
Dec 23, 20201 min read
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The call
I finally shared my secret with my family after 45 years - It freed my soul even if it broke my heart I made the call I did it I shared...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Get out of my head
I am very sad I am fuckin’ mad Who the hell is she To tell me how to be A mom Every step I take She makes me feel like a fake Why am I...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Waiting in the Son
Sitting in the sun Trying to understand where everything Went so wrong I followed my heart When my head always told me something...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Shame
Shame is a tough word It invades every crease And every fold I hate my body Go away Come back in another form Right now you are just my...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Find your freedom
Before I left for in-patient depression treatment I bought a charm I wore around my neck - it said "Find Your Freedom". That is what I...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Friends that become more
I was scared as hell as I entered in-patient treatment for depression. But what I found there, in the people, in the safety - was life...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Help
Why doesn’t anyone want to Help me I am screaming For help Blinking red lights Danger I am in trouble No history of reaching out Being...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20201 min read
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Growing roots of depression
After a year of living in depression by myself - I finally accepted help when my cousin reached out and called me on my own...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20202 min read
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Tomorrow is April Fool's Day
My wife and kids moved out of our home on April 1, 2017. The night before was one of the worst nights of my life. I feel like I am...
pamz27
Dec 22, 20202 min read
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Home
How do you create a home Where is home? Some people say It is the place you lay At night Others say Home is where the heart is Is that...
pamz27
Dec 21, 20201 min read
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Incompatible Lovers
It was a flight that changed my life I would find my wife I would live in strife I would discover love and loss I would get stuck in...
pamz27
Dec 21, 20204 min read
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