pamz27Jan 25, 20211 minWhere is my quiet depression when I need itI had an outburst Like I’ve never had before I scared myself I yelled; I was aggressive I felt possessed by anger Overwhelmed by fear Who...
pamz27Dec 23, 20201 minSaying goodbyeIn the midst of deep depression - I was a bad patient for a therapist who tried for so many years to help me heal. When I gave up - she...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minThe callI finally shared my secret with my family after 45 years - It freed my soul even if it broke my heart I made the call I did it I shared...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minGet out of my headI am very sad I am fuckin’ mad Who the hell is she To tell me how to be A mom Every step I take She makes me feel like a fake Why am I...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minWaiting in the SonSitting in the sun Trying to understand where everything Went so wrong I followed my heart When my head always told me something...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minShameShame is a tough word It invades every crease And every fold I hate my body Go away Come back in another form Right now you are just my...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minFind your freedomBefore I left for in-patient depression treatment I bought a charm I wore around my neck - it said "Find Your Freedom". That is what I...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minFriends that become moreI was scared as hell as I entered in-patient treatment for depression. But what I found there, in the people, in the safety - was life...
pamz27Dec 22, 20201 minHelpWhy doesn’t anyone want to Help me I am screaming For help Blinking red lights Danger I am in trouble No history of reaching out Being...
pamz27Dec 22, 20202 minGrowing roots of depressionAfter a year of living in depression by myself - I finally accepted help when my cousin reached out and called me on my own...
pamz27Dec 22, 20202 minTomorrow is April Fool's DayMy wife and kids moved out of our home on April 1, 2017. The night before was one of the worst nights of my life. I feel like I am...
pamz27Dec 21, 20201 minHomeHow do you create a home Where is home? Some people say It is the place you lay At night Others say Home is where the heart is Is that...
pamz27Dec 21, 20204 minIncompatible LoversIt was a flight that changed my life I would find my wife I would live in strife I would discover love and loss I would get stuck in...