I was scared as hell as I entered in-patient treatment for depression. But what I found there, in the people, in the safety - was life affirming and brought me back from the brink of hell.
My mind felt like gel
And I was walking into hell
It was not a good feeling
But I was committed to healing
I had surrendered my rights
I agreed to give up the fight
And start a new one
I sat in a circle
Sometimes large
Sometimes small
To learn the skills to get me out of hell
To stop the feelings of falling and failing
The amazing part of surrender
Is you learn to open your heart
You open your heart to survive
Let alone thrive
The people I met
Quickly became friends
And without their support
I would have stayed inside my fort
It was the hardest eight weeks of my life
But for each of them I am indebted
They helped me see clearly
The life I had in front of me
And for the first time
Helped me learn to honor the life I was leaving behind
They were kind
Beyond anything I knew
I was leaving behind the blue
I love you all
We each survived our hell
Enough to tell
Our story
And are learning to live for today
Because that’s all that we are guaranteed
Anyway