I finally shared my secret with my family after 45 years - It freed my soul even if it broke my heart
I made the call
I did it
I shared the secret
I took it from my heart and gave it to you
To help me hold my pain
Did you even hear me?
Or were my words like wind through a tree?
Have I set myself free?
My secret was holding me back
The burden was too great
I want others to help me hold the fear
So I can stop crying, stop shedding a tear
When I shared my pain
You seemed unmoved
That felt so cold
Was I searching for fool’s gold?
Everyone has had bad things happen to them
You said
We love you
You said
You were a victim
You said
We are private people
You said
It was a fool's game to share
In this family your soul you do not bare
Keep it cold
It is safe for mold
I shared to help me heal
Your stoicism does not defeat me
It may make me cry
For the little girl
Who was so scared
But it was my story to declare
I want to be free
There was never any guarantee