Why doesn’t anyone want to
Help me
I am screaming
For help
Blinking red lights
Danger
I am in trouble
No history of reaching out
Being vulnerable
I lean in
And get pushed back
Old patterns repeat in new surroundings
A broken heart
With a broken body
Now a mind racing to finish
With no finish line in sight
I cannot reach back to old companions
The result is I drop into deep canyons
I must learn new tools
And play by new rules
I must learn to communicate
To stop the internal hate
Where do I go from here to learn
Who will help me turn
Around
I must try
To build a new home
For me and my sons
Filled with color
Art
Music
Games
Family
Kids
Smiles
Laughs
Joy
I am trying
New habits for new tomorrows
Hope is the only way forward
Today
Forward seems so hard